kaoru

So, in addition to touring Fullerton on Friday, thanks to Bethany's dad knowing one of the professors at Fullerton in the music department and him being generous enough to be a middleman for me, I've now been given the opportunity to meet with one of the head art professors at Fullerton.

This is GREAT, but I'm also SCARED. It's not that I don't think I'm worthy and that I won't flourish in the program, because I definitely think I will... it's just that the past few months I haven't really done anything. :| I have a few old things to show him, but the majority of what I have just isn't impressive, I don't think. Not to mention he's like "bring a recent sketchbook!" and I'm like "Fuck EVERYTHING, I haven't been keeping up with one." I mean, I have one, and it has decent sketches in it (lots of life drawing from last spring), but I haven't done anything recent... oh gods. The only thing recent I'm going to have to show him is a painting I plan to finish tomorrow in class and haul ass home to photograph and print out before we leave for the airport tomorrow evening...

Another thing that sucks is that I haven't done many things illustration-oriented in a while. Nothing really full color, with the exception of that painting (and a cartoony self portrait I'm debating on including). I've been AFRAID of color, quite frankly- I don't understand it fully, and I've been waiting to learn more in class or whatever, and subsequently have avoided it like the plague. LOL. So hopefully he doesn't mind a bunch of sketches and character studies... Oh fuck my psyche and the way it makes me suffer later.

I'm gonna leaf through my works later and put them together... I'm so nervoussssss. :| Any words of like, advice or whatever, would be great... From Terri, especially, lol, you always know how to make me feel more prepared for these things. XD;